Working in a sort of government-ish setting can create a scary yet somewhat safe feeling within, even if it's imaginary. The vibe of uncertainty and low confidence of not having done this in a long long time is definitely stressful but yet has given me a short moment of joy every morning after the daily newsy stuff is done, and there's a breather; heaves of temporary relief.
The hazardous one-week haze also brought people together...I'm grateful for having really kind and thoughtful people around me...good food on some mornings, warm honey water when the haze was bad, comforting recognition/messages/emails of gratitude when I put in the effort to get something for them...it really seems like too good to be true..but I know it's God's blessing and way of looking after me.. and I'm really thankful...
Although weary from lack of sleep (becoming a norm on Mondays), something good happened today. I made a couple of minor connections from a tea break gathering in the office. Just a short interaction with colleagues can work wonders for one's emotion...uplifting the worst of moods n reinforcing self-belief in the strangest ways. Just the other day when one colleague asked if I'm doing ok, and started chatting with me, made me feel so happy I thought something was wrong with me... Then I thought, it's human interaction that brings the best out in us. As Brene Brown said, we are all connected, and that is why we yearn for that connection with people... it's simple, yet so powerful.
And so, tomorrow is a new day... I guess I have to be less pessimistic and unsure; more positive and confident, and believe that anything is possible...just work hard and keep on keeping on...
Peace out (for now) <3
sorry to have read it way too late:)
ReplyDeletehope u have been keep on keeping on